Tuesdays

I haven't been on here for a bit.  I have been busy, yeah right.  Well work has been extremely slow this last couple weeks.  I just got a yearly review where i was told that i was great but they aren't giving money to anyone this year, but i deserve one.  OK, so you'll forget how great i am when you have money......i know how that works, i let them know how i felt, although i know it wouldn't get me anywhere.  I mentioned that i would need some sort of carrot to persuade me to want to take on more responsibility.  Its always a tricky slope to bring that up, it can be taken the wrong way very easily. 

I have many thoughts on my job, one day i may hate it and the next i find it interesting and enjoyable.  So as I work on my homework for school, i wonder if i will be able to quit my job and go on to pursue a degree of some sort in mechanical or electrical engineering.  I'm not in a position now that i would like to stay in, but i have laid the ground work for a possibly better position in the company in a few years, do i just give that up.  For the most part, i believe that i am just a number, a minion in their empire.  Heck, the owner doesn't even know my name half the time, hey Aaron or Jason.  My name isn't Jason, you ass!  I want to correct him but he doesn't stop to talk, just as he passes by in the hallway.  I guess what keeps me there is the fact that i have learned so much about the industry that i am, so quickly that i know that i have only touched to tip of the iceburg.  And that i can learn about different things that i haven't thought about.  But its not like they let me choose what i will get to work with, and there is no training what so ever, if you saw a machine once you are now the expert.  They actually think its funny or "that's how it was when i was out in the field."  But its not right, but no one wants to make it better, just a endless circle of crap.

i got a talking too for having a misc charge of $0.99 on my cell phone, she wanted an explaination right now.  i wanted to just give her the phone and say i no longer need it, and if they want me to have it, then dont let me have any extra crap so i can't "rack" up the bill.

So when I quit I will have to start over with some other company making sheet metal brackets, having some uneducated moron tell me that my bracket isn't made right, although i didn't make it and the print is correct.  I can only imagine the stress i would be under, a new world i would be in, will i like it even.  All these thoughts have made it hard to do all my homework that i need to do.  I haven't touched my math or bio books for 1.5 weeks.  I don't have time to slack off.  and this only adds to the stress, now i hear a clock ticking....tick...tick.

It has been snowing pretty good up here lately.  I got stuck in my driveway a couple times, and rachel got stuck this morning.  I got stuck at work in front of everyone, on a slight incline, nice tires company x! Safety is our priority, yeah right.